life... is still rolling along like the waves of a shore. the best part now is how calm and gentle those waves have reached me. and like the ever increasing erosion of sand and shore of change, life is different now from years past. better. peaceful. and... full of love.
For almost 13 years this quite beauty was in my life. A constant presence that was warmth and love. Sadly, with age, I knew awhile ago that our time was nearing the end. My heart felt heavy with this realization, and with tears streaming down, I knew it was time to say goodbye to a close friend. I miss her very much and always will. Love you Melba, and we miss you.
the days will soon be cold and dreary but for a few brief moments the sun is warm and inviting. so my little boy and i must take advantage of those fading summer evenings and breathe in that fresh air before shutters and shivers of frozen limbs over take us. ahh...enjoy.
finding a surprise in my mind, my heart, and keeping my eyes open to the possibilities of one of lifes greatest beauties. but how to keep the hope alive when there are others blind to their past? someday, somehow, the dream will be real.
the season is fastly changing once again. how ive waited for the fall. my favorite of them all with the warm, rich colors swarming in my view. the smells of crisp cool air. im still growing with the seasons. still finding my way in this new life. and changing for the better...
a day was spent in nature. gathering firewood for the upcoming winter season it was a real pleasure to be surronded by the sights and sounds of a forrest. how ive missed the summers of camping and frolicing amonst the woodland creatures.
sometimes in life... the road can change directions. which way you decide to go depends on the world you want for yourself. in struggles and confusion the way can become lost or distorted, but all i need to do to regain the strenght i have found is to just stop and see the beauty around me. the beauty in lifes simple joys...
comes the light... things are fresh, beginning with the embers of sunlight glowing and growing with the happiness in my heart. yes... life is much better. i am finding myself once again, and damn it feels good.
With Spring, there are changes. In the air, in the view. Life coming back to bloom and sunshine warming the days to last longer for those crisp evening nights. And with this new season upon us changing everything around us, it now will be me as well changing.
The reality is a road I never wanted to take but now know that it is the road that has to be taken. I will be stronger, wiser, and above all... happy. With time the wounds will heal and life will be better. For me. And especially for my Son.
With that, my blogging days will not be over, but will be sporadic for awhile. Until my new life can begin. But with the love of my life, my wonderful little boy, I know that anything will be possible now on this new road of ours.