After my low-self esteem day yesterday, I decided that I needed a little retail therapy. I know that shopping is not the way to go to solve problems, but I couldn't help it when I saw this beauty. I had needed to find a pair of shoes to go with the outfit that I am planning on wearing this weekend, so Fritz and I headed off to shop. I know that I will see lots of people that I only see every couple of years this weekend, so of course I want to look somewhat good. Hence, the self esteem issues yesterday.
Post-pregnancy, my body is still being mean to me. I had a really good month last month and have lost (and kept off) five pounds, but nothing more. It just doesn't seem enough. I didn't have a terribly hard pregnancy, however, I had serious issues with food. I didn't have nausea all the time, I just couldn't eat or find anything that sounded or smelled good to eat. I was told by my doctor not to work out so that I could save any calories that I gained that day. At the end of the pregnancy, I had only gained 12 pounds. I have never in my life had problems gaining weight until the time I was suppose to!
And then.... after Fritz was born it felt as if I had been starving completely for the nine months and had to make up for it. Plus the non-working-staying-at-home-new-mother-one-income-semi-depression, hounded me into some form of weird happiness with food. I'm still at the weight that I was when I had Fritz, but now that the body has changed from the stretchy belly, I can't seem to get rid of it! My legs are getting smaller, but sadly I have been forced to buy a bigger size pants just to fit the tummy! Then of course the legs are soooo baggy I look ridiculous. Man! That feels better getting that all off my mind.
Even though I know I don't look my best, at least now I will have a damn fine new purse to show off. Oh! And I did find the shoes too. ;)